fic commentary: land where i land - rise.

[yearnism]

chapter one (rise) posted on 15/02/24 to ao3.

Started writing this because I wasn't yet ready to fully focus on a Yellowjackets AU I have planned, but things spiralled out of my control. Here you have Lee Chan, captivating, full of life Lee Chan, the bane of Lee Jihoon's existence even if neither of them know this yet. You have this mysterious forest he goes to every winter in order to isolate himself. And Lee Jihoon, what does he know? What is it that he wants from Chan - and from himself, even?

It was so much fun to play with questions like these. I, the author, know the answers to them, but having both my protagonist and the reader scramble to figure them out in real time made me incredibly happy. "Jihoon hasn’t seen a single deer since they got here a day ago, but he’ll keep looking, keep trying."  is one of the lines from the first scene and I think it sets the tone for the rest of the story, as well as "Chan hasn’t told him much and he hasn’t asked. He doesn’t ever ask, he’s realizing more and more, these days", directly after it. Jihoon will keep trying, won't ask. This is the bottom line of the whole story.

I've had people ask me what Jihoon's dreams mean. He says it himself, "Dreams are full of motive." I'm not one who can fully understand their subconscious, and I bet most people can't, either. The only thing I'm sure of is this; Jihoon doesn't know what the dreams mean. Refer back to the previous paragraph - do you think he'll ask either himself or Chan? Does he want to know?

It's only the first chapter and I'm already in so deep. I'm royally fucked. I don't want to leave this goddamn cabin either. Winter itself is such a lonely season - adding the elements of dereality to it, this... this eeriness, Jihoon's constant battle with himself over his desire, whatever supernatural stuff surrounds them... I'm pretty sure I haven't written anything this haunting before. Or, well; nothing I've written has ever haunted me this much before.

Ati, what is up with Chan's backstory? Well. If you truly want spoilers for this, I'm happy to do that over on twitter at scifis. If you feel like you can be a little patient, though... I promise I won't let you down. See you soon. See you in your dreams.

Comments

[ngtskynebula]

I don't even know what's going on, but I've added the fic to my read later list. It's always a great time to read the sebongs loving Lee Chan. (We'll see lots of loving, right...?)

Just passing by to comment your dw's layout is lovely, and I'm obsessed with the light blue palette. Also, I relate so much to you drowning into a new shiny idea's lure... god knows how many fics I've started in the past two months because of that. It's getting worrisome, but I'll do what I gotta do.

(Sit down and go crazy, probably.)

[yearnism]

Just saw this and I am soooo sorry for the late reply! Woag! We do see lots of loving in this, but I think more than that... Yearning? Longing? I hope you can still enjoy it though :)

And ahhh thank you! I'm still new to the whole dw thing so it's really nice to hear I'm doing something right at least! Hehehe. If having too many WIPs was a crime I think we'd all be locked up already. Let us pray that doesn't happen T—T